Bust some suds...

When I came to see this apartment, there were a few things that I fell in love with right away.. The yard with the pear tree, brick wall in the kitchen, fireplace in the living room..yes its fake, but still looks nice..But most of all, I actually had a laundry room!! Wow, was I in my glory, until my bubble was so nicely popped. The landlord tells me oh the hook up in there doesn't work and we don't allow washers here.UGHH, just wonderful another place where I can't wash clothes at home. That is truly a luxury, especially when you have to lug bags of laundry to a hot laundromat and have screaming running kids all over the place and only a hard bench to sit on...UGHHHHH

So I went today and busted some major suds.. Bags of clothes, sheets and comforters from the girls bed. Needless to say I was in there for a good while.. When I came home, I wasn't feeling too good...Chest hurt, body aches...Just felt like crap. I ended up falling asleep, with bags of clothes that still needed to be put away.. But I was just too tired and weak to do it..Times like today, I sure wish I had a washer at home so I can do it daily or almost daily and in the comfort of my own home...

Monday..need I say more?

They really are never fun..I went with Luis to the dentist, he did awesome. WEll other then having to have is wisdom teeth out. They are gonna remove all 4 cause they grew in funny.. So does that mean he will not have any wisdom?? hehehe

We had some McDonald's and then he dropped me off at home and went back to work. Again I was supposed to go to the grocery store with Puti, something keeps coming up. Hopefully tomorrow..

I started feeling like crap. I should have known cause its very rare that I take a nap and today I took a little snooze. Woke up feeling not to swift. My body is all achy and even felt a little feverish. I am just relaxing and getting caught up on my blog. Hopefully I can get a good nights sleep. It's so hot and muggy though, can't see that really happening. Sweet dreams!

Pictures to come....My computer is giving me a hard time to upload, So as soon as it lets me.. I have pics for that past 3 days!

Come on over...

So Luis worked today and I stayed with the car. I was going to go grocery shopping with Puti but it didn't work out that way. I picked up Mary-Lou cause there was a church sale, 3 dollars a bag, fit whatever you can in the bag. Awesome! I went last year and came back with some really good stuff. This time they mostly had clothes. So I ended up coming out of there with 3 bags. I paid 9 bucks and got SO much stuff. Dresses, jeans, sweaters..I really made out good.

Well after we left there, Luis was not in the greatest mood and we were arguing. So I went and picked up Michael and we went to Walmart. I got home and had my Aunt and my cousin there so I made the food that I was supposed to do yesterday. Chicken breast and potato salad..

While I was cooking the kids took out the hose and got wet in the backyard.. I got a little wet putting on the hose, but It felt good cause it was SO hot! We had dinner and then we started to watch Monster in law. Michael had to leave so I took Mary-Lou home and came back, cleaned up some of the mess and then relaxed.. LONG stressful day!

Pictures too come....

Backyard BBQ...

What can even be better then burgers on the grill. I Love when it's warm enough to cook outside. I wish that I was able to cook out all year long. Saturday started off kind of boring. I went to the grocery store and got some chicken breast, I was going to make chicken strips and potato salad. But other plans came up.

My Mother in law calls up and asks what we were doing and they tell us to come by, that they were cooking out. So we waited until Luis got out at 7 and went on over. Lucy and Puti were there also, and they were all playing dominoes. I played for the first time ever, and I did pretty good. It's actually kind of fun. While we were doing that, the kids had fun running in the yard and playing hide and seek..

We stayed for a little while had coffee and then went on home...Nice family time!

Pictures to come....

Missing out...

Well my mother is back to herself again, she just got out the hospital and she is already starting with her attitude. I know that my girls are not angels, but there not that bad that she needs to be constantly starting with them. You know it kind of breaks my heart that it takes so much effort for her to be nice to them. It should come automatically with the "grandma" title. Not with her, it doesn't. The only time she is really nice to them is when I fight with her and remind her that they are not only kids that live here, they are your "grand kids" show them love..

If I didn't know the love of a grandmother like I had, maybe it wouldn't be so bad. But I just feel like they are missing out on something so wonderful. They also have there other grandmother but they don't get to see her enough, and its just not the same, like I had with mine. I just wish that I could make her see that, they WILL remember this. When they are older and they think back on memories with her and times they shared together. They will just think of how angry and mean she was. They notice even know, there will be times every once in awhile when she IS in a good mood. They will say "Ma, doesn't have a attitude" If they are able to point that out, then obviously it's cause they are used to seeing her with one.


I just wish that they had what I had... Even for a day with my grandmother, going out to McDonald's for a happy meal and singing songs while waiting for the bus. Little outings like that, with a loving, smiling grandmother is what they miss out on. Despite all that, they really adore her, which makes it a little harder to watch.. Ava says to me when I picked her up from school yesterday.. "I was thinking about Ma, all day in class" That's when she was in the hospital. OUCH! Just makes my heart ache that they can love her so much despite how she is with them. Of course I want them to love her, but I just want her to love them back the same way. I am sure she does in her own way, but not in the way that they deserve..=(

Shhh were in the library...

We have tons of books at home already, so it just never really crossed my mind to go to the library, not to mention that we barely have the car to get there...But I thought it would be a really good idea to get some NEW books that we haven't seen and read a million times. So we went and let me tell you how excited these girls were to get there OWN library card. They were on cloud nine.. "Mommy, I want to hold my own" They felt grown up and in charge. So we went and looked all around and they took out 4 books each..While we were in there we had to keep reminding Zoey that in a library there is not screaming and running around! Yeah that was not a easy task..







We picked up my mom from the hospital, everything was good with all her tests, thank God! When we got home we read the grouchy ladybug first and a few more after that. Daddy was going out to the casino, yes again! At least he won this time, not much, 60bucks but its better than losing. But we stayed at home and had a girls night watching movies.. Great night!

Regrets..

I have far too many, and I know that everything happens for a reason and you learn from your mistakes and it makes you into who you are..But it still doesn't erase regrets and all that comes along with them..

~I Regret not finishing high school..(yeah I have a
GED..But not as good as actually finishing..
~I Regret not saving and using my trust fund more wisely..
~I Regret not at least trying to buy my grandparent's house, before it was sold from the family. (that house was built by my grandfather and that's the house where my mom was born and raised)

~But most of all I Regret what happened today, My mom and I had a really bad argument and things were said and done that should have not been. Then I got a wake up call and she ended up in the hospital, and All I was left with was Regrets and a very Thankful second chance. She is fine and will be home tomorrow. But it makes you realize, you just never know what may be your last words to someone, so be careful how you handle things and try a little harder to just walk a way when needed.

So Yeah, I am a Strong woman because of things that I have gone through in my life, but that is not without regrets, that is just with learning how to Live with them.. But my family helped me to do that, one of the many reasons why I Thank God for all he has blessed me with, despite all my choices and many regrets.