Admit it or deal with it...

I will one day finally need to except that I just may need a little help. My mother and my brother both are on anxiety/depression meds, and every bit of me wants nothing to do with that. But I don't know if its old age or just in my blood to worry. Now when I say worry, I don't mean just a little bit every now and then. NO, I constantly worry about everything and anything. I have constant fear, any little pain and I am freaking out. My girls get a little sick and I am freaking out. I just don't think its normal to worry as much as I do..

Sometimes I worry to the point of not eating or crying all day, such as today...


I have been having a discomfort in my (bottle) that is what the girls call them..I would notice it on and off for a while but I was just too chicken to have it checked out.. But today I was having a lot of back pain and started googling symptoms and as always google scares the begeezes out of me..So I decided it was time to go and check it out. So I make a appointment and she wanted to give me Monday morning but I made it known that I was upset and she told me to come in right away.

Well she does the exam and says that she didn't feel anything.. Sigh of relief for Laurie! She says that during ovulation the breasts are more tender and also there is a little irritation on the nipple.. So she prescribed me a cream. She says to pay attention to when my friend comes and if its still sore at that time and I want she will send me for further testing.


But days like today are why I am questioning is this something that I can get help for? Should I just deal with it and live like this? I keep telling myself that I don't like taking pills and what kind of life is that, but what kind of life is this, always worrying about something to the point that I am literally making myself sick. I just don't know what to do. I have to give it some thought.....


(I really need to Thank Melanie and Talia cause even though they may not know it, but they were really there for me today. Even if it was just through texting but it took my mind off things and made me stop crying for that little bit of time...They may be "online" friends but I consider them Great friends..and of course Roxanne and Puti who stayed on the phone with me through a lot of the day..Sometimes friends make good medicine...