Button of life...

I thought a lot today about how fast these kids grow..I mean I really have to face it, Vae is most likely my last baby.

No more small cuddly, need to be burped and rocked..Raspberry sounds and the little coos they make. and OH, those sleepy smiles, sound asleep but smiling from ear to ear...HOW cute is that! Learning to sit up and crawl and then walk..Not to mention the BF'ing that bond between you and a baby is, well I have tears in my eyes. Not sure there is much that compares to that. Those are things I love about babies..

The things I don't love are not being able to sleep, cause I am worried that I won't hear her cry or is she too hot or too cold.. Is she breathing okay.. Is she gonna get sick while she is just a little helpless baby..Some parents just don't like the baby stage cause they don't get enough sleep.. I sure didn't, but more often then not, it was because I was constantly getting up to hear her breathe.. Luis always said that I would jump for every little sound my baby would make.. So those are parts that I don't like..

But anyways I am getting a little up in age..*cough*cough* to keep making babies.. The magic question.."Don't you want to try for the boy"? Ummm NO, cause with my luck it would most likely be another girl, which is not a bad thing. But do I LONG for that boy or feel incomplete without a "Son"..Not at all, I always think about it like this, If I were to have 3 boys right now, I feel like my heart would ache for a little girl. So God decided to bless me with these 3 little girls and I am ever so grateful. I have 3 best friends for life..

But I just wish that someone could press a slow motion button cause it feels like someone has it on fast forward..I want to remember everything, little things, like the way Nevaeh says bye bye with her cute little fingers moving back and forth or the way she makes a frown face when you take something away from her. She loves blankets, loves to be covered, she pulls the blanket up over her and tucks it ever so sweetly under her arms. It's really hard to get a kiss from her, but if you ask her she will sure make the sound and pucker up and then right when you go in for the big smooch she turns her face.. little stinker.

The breastfeeding bond is another post that I have to pour my heart out into but how I treasure those moments with her..Please someone pause this baby of mines, life...