Neverending sickness...

Well Ava stayed home from school today, even though she was pretty much feeling better this morning. But I figure I would give her a little rest time. She had soup earlier and her appetite seems to be coming back. Well Zoey starts complaining that her stomach was hurting. She at one point even fell asleep and she doesn't nap anymore, she only naps during the day when she is not feeling to hot.

When she woke up from her nap she was feeling a little better, they were watching Grease.. Puti had come by with Lucy and Nyeasia.. I was dying her hair for her. I put them both in bed and sure enough, Zoey was throwing up.. NOT again. Is this ever going to end? Ughhh I hate this sickness. There goes the blankets again. Hopefully she sleeps good though, cause I am tired!

Please sickies, GO AWAY And don't come back.. EVER! Thank you...

Around again...

I swear what is it with that darn stomach bug, it's like the worst to get rid of. I get a call from the school and those are never fun seeing the school's phone number on the caller ID.. Kind of scary! Well the nurse says that Ava is complaining of her throat and belly. So she comes home from school early. She is crying that her belly hurts a lot and her throat. So she sleeps for a while on the sofa. The nurse said to keep her home the next day cause it's only a half a day..

She slept most of the day and I had to go wash the blankets from the beds, Zoey threw up on the night before.. She was feeling a little better when I tucked her into bed.. Tomorrow is going to be a day of movies and resting..Hope that this bug LEAVES already!

Picture Perfect...Mother's Day

So what a happpppy Mother's day it was. We woke up sort of early and the first thing Luis says is "Lets go get your camera". I was struggling with the idea of spending 500 dollars on a camera. A few people were making me think, its way too much money to spend on a camera. Which maybe to them it is, but I feel like this is my passion, I LOVE taking pictures and I don't just take a picture of holidays or family outings. I like taking pictures of Everything, weather it be one of my daughters doing something funny or messy. Those are memories that are going to last forever and if I could catch them everyday, I SO would.

I see the beauty in side pictures or even pictures where they are totally looking down and not even at the camera. I love close up pictures and feet pictures and messy face pictures...I just love all kinds of pictures and I plan on getting really good at this. I wish I could become a professional but for now I will enjoy shooting my favorite models, my girls!

Well we went to Mother in laws house for the day. It was really nice, NO fighting just pure fun. I used my new toy to capture lots of memories of the day. They were having fun posing and I was having fun shooting..Being the one behind the camera means not being in too many pictures but that is OKAY for me..LOL I did have Beba take one of all of us together but that is never easy with these girls and daddy who always closes his eyes in pictures..But it turned out to be a really awesome day.. Lots of laughs!




But the day didn't end there, of course my girl Puti came by to have some coffee with me and just chit chat. We were going to watch Avatar again but by the time we were done talking it was too late...HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY "2010" the day my baby got me my canon rebel.. I LOVE IT and I so don't feel bad anymore, I deserve it, darn it I DO..lol


Then right before my head hits the pillow, Zoey is puking.. The sickies has reached her now...Ughh well time to be a mama..

Shopping...

I SO Love to shop! Even if it's to just look around. So we went to Ikea to get my mother in laws curio cabinet. While we were out, we started looking at my camera that I want SO bad. We went to best buy, target and then walmart. Basically the same price for the camera but the extra insurance on it was cheaper in walmart. But unfortunately they didn't have any in stock. Well the associate that helped us called a few other stores and we were not having any luck. So we went home and Luis started looking online and calling other stores and he found where they had one. So he said that we would go get it tomorrow..

I started having my doubts about it, it's kind of a lot of money for a camera. I was thinking to myself like is that a waste of money, should I be spending that kind of money on me. So I finally thought that I was not gonna get it. Part of me was hoping that he would sneak off and just go buy it for me. So I didn't have to decide on such a expensive toy.

Puti, Nysia and Lou came by with some pizzas and white castle hamburgers.. It was a nice movie night, Puti dropped her whole pepperoni pizza on the floor. We watched Avatar tonight. What a awesome movie. I didn't think that I would like it at all, but it was truly a good movie and I enjoyed it. Well until the end and of course I fell asleep. What can I say its a long movie..lol

Back to life..

Still getting back to regular life after being sick for a few days..Mostly cleaned and put away laundry. Watched my soaps and surfed the web also in between. Luis went fishing with the boys and Puti came by and we got some KFC. Oh how good it was. She was telling me about the Double down sandwich, but I just didn't like the taste of the sauce. But I had a KFC bowl, oh gosh what have I been missing? It was SO good. We talked for a little while and then she left and then relax time for me..

Sickies...

I had a really bad night, I woke up about 5 in the morning with chills. Like I was shaking so bad. Couldn't sleep really well after that. When I finally got up, I did a few things around the house that have been neglected while I have been sick..Maybe I overdid it a little too much, cause after that my back hurt and I felt feverish again and just plain sluggish. I fell asleep on the sofa for a little while, but its really hard to sleep with 2 kids wanting to jump on you and play.

I slept on and off as much as I could, thanks to my mom for her help. I got up and took some Motrin and felt a little better after that. We had company from Lucy and Puti and when they left it was time to relax again. I went to go make a sandwich cause I barely ate the whole day besides a bologna sandwich. When I was the kitchen I hear a sound that is all to familiar, it was the sound of a child getting sickie and throwing up. My itty bitty Vae Bae was throwing up in the dining room and she just did not know what to think of it. She was crying so hard and all covered in nasty milk...EWWW

So now the sickies are on to her and pretty sure that they will make there way through the house..She has thrown up a few times already even as I write this, matter of fact she let some of it out on the screen. Talk about putting into the blog...lol Well here is to hoping for NO more sickies tomorrow morning..please

Admit it or deal with it...

I will one day finally need to except that I just may need a little help. My mother and my brother both are on anxiety/depression meds, and every bit of me wants nothing to do with that. But I don't know if its old age or just in my blood to worry. Now when I say worry, I don't mean just a little bit every now and then. NO, I constantly worry about everything and anything. I have constant fear, any little pain and I am freaking out. My girls get a little sick and I am freaking out. I just don't think its normal to worry as much as I do..

Sometimes I worry to the point of not eating or crying all day, such as today...


I have been having a discomfort in my (bottle) that is what the girls call them..I would notice it on and off for a while but I was just too chicken to have it checked out.. But today I was having a lot of back pain and started googling symptoms and as always google scares the begeezes out of me..So I decided it was time to go and check it out. So I make a appointment and she wanted to give me Monday morning but I made it known that I was upset and she told me to come in right away.

Well she does the exam and says that she didn't feel anything.. Sigh of relief for Laurie! She says that during ovulation the breasts are more tender and also there is a little irritation on the nipple.. So she prescribed me a cream. She says to pay attention to when my friend comes and if its still sore at that time and I want she will send me for further testing.


But days like today are why I am questioning is this something that I can get help for? Should I just deal with it and live like this? I keep telling myself that I don't like taking pills and what kind of life is that, but what kind of life is this, always worrying about something to the point that I am literally making myself sick. I just don't know what to do. I have to give it some thought.....


(I really need to Thank Melanie and Talia cause even though they may not know it, but they were really there for me today. Even if it was just through texting but it took my mind off things and made me stop crying for that little bit of time...They may be "online" friends but I consider them Great friends..and of course Roxanne and Puti who stayed on the phone with me through a lot of the day..Sometimes friends make good medicine...